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Life has just become slightly more amusing. My father who has been dating for two months is now engaged. They will be getting married on January 7. They are just too cute for words and so infatuated that it is not even funny. I'm loving it. I'm glad my dad is going to be happy again. Also finding it amusing that he's marrying soemone again who has the same first two initials as him and my mom and thus her name still fits in nicely with ours. I figure he'lll bring her to either christmas or thanksgiving to introduce her to the family. It will be fun.
Well thats all for now. Sort this time huh? Well don't really have naything else reaally to update you guys on.
Sleep Well and Dream Sweet
Finduilas Sirfalas
Well, lets see. My life as always appears quite good on th eoutside by inside is a brittle as all hell. It just fells like it is going no where as always. Seeing a counselor. He beleives that i do possess feelings, just do not know how to access and deal with those feelings. I have for to long being flitting around the edges rationalizg what i am suppossed to be feeling and why that i actuamatically go beyond feelings to thoughts in split second. So can't really experience my emotions anymore...the proverbial ice queen. Not so sure it is ever goign to be anything but ice here either. He says that part of my depression and quite possibly most of it stems from my own rationalizations whenever i do something i always ask myself why am i doing it? My answer is usually do nolt know but still must do it for class, friends, family so on. Thus nothing i do has purpose for me. I do not see a reason to do anything and thus life has no "meaning" as cliched as that sounds. I do nothing for my own enjoyment only for the enjoyment of others.
But enough of selfpity...some things that should be good news. I have three A's at the moment, one unknown as all we get graded on is the final paper and in class participation, and an a or b in other class, leaning toward A but not really sure. Acing my online courses, they happen to be exceedingly easy to pass, so no worries there. Kind of starting to worry about my major papers and projects all starting to be due in about three weeks...none of which i ahve started at all....proctrastination...don't you just love it?
This christmas i will be singing in my church agian, and my dad and i will also be doing a duet with him on the french horn and me singing. It should be amusing and i think i will love it. My dad is now dating a nice lady by the name of dand and no that wasd not sarcasm she really is a nice lady. they are infatuated with each other...it is so cute. They have been dating for about two months now. I'm glad for them.
I have discovered that i am without a doubt one of teh saddest people in the world. But lest not focus on that.
I am now an auntie to a little boy...Shane Micheal...ammoslingblade's new son born a couple weeks ago. Do not have pictures yet, so looking forward to them though.
This halloween i am dressin up as a pirate lady, really pretty costume in red and black. We are going to dinner and bar-hopping after words. It will be fun even if i do not drink sinc ei do not like the taste of most liquers. So it should be fun and amusing to watch my friends get drunk. It usually is.
I have finally accepte dthe challenge and tomorrow shall cook for my friends, steakies and potatoes. It shall be fun and amusing. Lets hope i do not burn myself or cut myself. I mean i can cook i just have a tendency to injure myslef while attempting it.
I have no quizes for today....but i do have a comment....on comments. I kept complaining that no one ever posted comments. One of my friends said it was becaus ethere was no link.....WRONG!!! IF YOU CLICK ON THE TIME LINK AT THE BOTTOM OF EACH ENTRY IT WILL TAKE YOU TO A SEPERATE PAGE AT THE BOTTOM OF WHICH YOU WILL FIND THE BUTTON TO MAKE A COMMENT. A little round about i know but it is there, so comments would be welcomed, on this and past entries if you can remeber what you wanted to say to them.
As always,
Sleep Well and Dream Sweet
Finduilas Sirfalas (Ice Queen)
Well, right now i am gettign ready for bed but decided to check my email first. While i was at it decided to finally respond to a message i got from an online company i ordered some anime through. I got all but one of the items i ordered through them in a certain shipment. They sent out the last item seperately, only problem is they sent it to the wrong zipcode but some how it still got delivered only i never saw it or recieved it. When i contacted them about it they told me that i had to talk to USPS about it. I'm like excuse me, they don't know what wa sin it or what it was worth and you mailed it to the wrong freakin' address and suddenly im the one who has to track it down and retrive it! I have to do the work. I'm sorry if you make a mistake you fix it. It is not only good cutomer relations but just common sense, people! I mean who in their right mind expects others to clean up after a mistake they didn't make. And you know what im only asking them to send me a single little book, which at most costs ten dollars with shipping and handling. You would think with such a large company and such a small order mistake it woudl be considered a right off especailly when im willing to provide them with the docvumentation sayoing that they shipped the rest of it tpo the right address an dthis last shipment which wa sto be part of teh other went to a completely different adress. Thus proof that they got it wrong their mistake, and thus they should fix it. But no they told me that the only thing they could do it refer me to USPS. well what am i supposed to do there they ahve no clue what they package was and since it wasn't insured it is not their problem if it went to the wrong address. I mean really what am i supposed to do.
Anyways i sent them a little email explaining all of that and told them if they did not find some way to fix it i was not only canceling my other orders throuygh them but also never orderng again and warning away freinds from the site and also reporting them to whatever business bureau thing i could think. And all that over a measily ten dollar price tag which such a large company should be able to eat without going bankrupt. So thats were i left that who knows it might get fixed might not.
well, good night, just wanted to rant...
Sleep Well and Dream Sweet
Alright, al lot of the quizzes here have been building up for a while. I'm not sure about a lot of them but we will see what i remember. As for my life right now. Its going okay. I've got two new friends always a plsu. School is goign pretty good...now if only i could convince myself it was worth it to go to classes...they just don't seem worth it anymore. Who knows maybe they will become a way to relieve my bordom come later in teh semster.
Good news. According to my new psychatrist im not depressed...now don't we all wish they could finally agree on a diagnosis for me...it would eb helpful...and slightly reassuring. After all if they can't agree...how do we know anything is worng to ebgin with?
So lets see. I take these quizes for fun...
First up...
~You are a grey rose~
What Colour Rose Are You?
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I like dthat. A grey rose, kind of emblematic of my feelings at most points in my life, grey...not very prominant fading into the background...
Second...
Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Okay...alcholic drink...why did i take this anyways? You can form your own opinions on what it measn about me.
Third...
You are a peaceful sleeper. You recognize that
sleep is a necessary part of life, and
understand that there is no way for you to
fully appreciate everything around you if you
dont give yourself a break once in a while.
You are a very calm and collected person who
seems to have all of their ducks in a row, so
to speak. You enjoy life without getting
over-enthusiastic and appreciate harmony in all
things.
How do you Sleep? (Anime Pics)
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Yeah right. I do not lseep peacefully. First i cna't fall asleep and then will wake up every couple of hours. Uaually not rested at all when i get up in the morning. It sucks. Maybe im supposed to be a peaceful sleeper but never ahve been and do not expect it to change anytime soon.
Fourth...
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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That one seems pretty accurate..almost scarily so. Some of these quizes are like taht others like the one above. It is what makes them so fun.
Fifth...
Your personality is best represented by the
traditional Japanese Katana. You are brave
beyond words and rarely (if ever) act for your
own personal gain. Your honor is very
important to you, and you strive to better
yourself and help others. You try not to let
emotions get in the way of making a sound
decision, and are usually quite successful.
What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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Well like the imagery, but i now im a selfish being and only act in others benefit out of guilt or because it gives me some control over them so don't know if i truly agree with this at all.
Sixth...(if i lose count sorry)
Your personality is best represented by the
Japanese dagger, called a Tanto. A person who
wields a Tanto knows better than anyone that
you cant judge on appearance alone. You have
the unique ability to see the full potential in
people and objects long before anyone else has
a clue. You are clever and are probably
underestimated a lot by others, but YOU know
who you are and exactly what you are capable
of.
What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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Hey look i did it twice...probaly changed afew borderline answers...not that this one fits much better than the other...Peolpe always overestimate what i am willing to do, if they do underestimate i am capable of doing.
Seventh...
7 Types of Intelligence - Which is yours?
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??????? Any comments welcome. Not that im expecting them...people never comment...its slightly sad...probably tells you how few read this site huh?
Eigth...
Looks like you have managed to get into Heaven!
CONGRADULATIONS!!! Let's hope there is a Heaven
to get into and all will be grand. Have fun!
Are you going to Heaven or Hell?
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Oh, goody! Life is grand then. even if life sucks here im going to heaven. Thats something to look forward to, even if the rest of my life doesn't seem to be exactly something to look forward to.
Ninth...(sweet lord how many of these have i done and saved)
You are the warrior, a sevant of the force. Ennmy
of people and slayer of dragons. your strong
feirce and not afraid of anything. You have
excelant balance and swoard craft. Enimies die
at your hands...
What are you? (10 different outcomes)
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If find the balance comment the most amusing, but i liked the rest f it...makes me feel all warm and tingly inside...
Tenth...
You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.
Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Well..how do you like that..i think it is a pretty good estimate of my personality, exceopt for the point of letting things go... i mean im a realist and know i can't change things but i like to harp on things to as my friends well know.
Elevnth...(thi sis kind of fun...lie doing the quizes all over again)
The Goddess of Night and Regret. You are a perfect
confidante. Always understanding and
solicitous, you could be a queen and you are
exceptionally honest. You are an intelligent
beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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AAhh, how sweet/cute...explains why people always talk to me about their problems...and im bluntly honest and not very sweet when i decide to be. Don't know about the last...
Twelfth...(i can't spell...nevr have been able to..it has to do wuith an ionablity to learn phonetics)
Midnight is the time of day (or night, more or
less) that best represents you. You have
little patience for idiots and probably would
like nothing more than for people to just leave
you alone sometimes. People often see you as
being a very dark and cold person, and you
probably have some inner anger or resentment
towards those who have hurt you in the past.
You are almost always open to unusual ideas and
you like expressing yourself through writing
and/or drawing.
What Time of Day Best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
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Lovely, Actually i love midnight but love moonlinght nightime even better. It just is quiet and undisturbed in some way..less people... wish i could live only at night think life would be simpler then...less things to deal with...like daytime soaps...just kidding..
Thriteen...(aahh...my favorite number)
You love the loners. Guys who seem misunderstood
and lonely just steal your heart away. You
want to reach out your hand to them because you
can see how truly wonderful they could be if
someone would just take the time to care. Some
day your open love will reward you with a
hidden jewel beyond measure.
What Kind of Guy Would You Go For?? (Nice D.N. Angel Pics!)
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I can only hope that someday i will find somebody...but you know what that hope just keeps gettig dimmer as the years go by.
Fourteen...
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Your wise quote is: "Love is life.
And if you miss love, you miss life" by
Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your
life. If you have it or not is another matter,
but it is in your eyes the most important
feeling. You tend to be a romantic dreamer and
want you and your love to have that kind of
perfect love that you hear about in fairytales.
However that can be hard to find, but it
doesn't mean you are going to stop looking.
What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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Pretty accurate...you can take that anyway you want...I do not beleive in fairytales, but i still wnat that kind of love, with all my heart...
Fifteen...(oh if you wnat to know these have been building up since the end of march 2005)
You have TRAGIC love...and after all of these
relationships that turned sour, youre probably
ready to give up entirely on finding the right
partner. Try to hang on and dont worry, love
can pop up when you least expect it, but you
arent going to see it if your eyes are clouded
by tears. (did i mention that the
broken-spirited Winterhart found true love with
Amberdrake??)
What Type of Love Best Represents You?? (WONDERFUL anime pics!)
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Right...given up already and not frrom bad romances in the past but from none...
Sixteen...
You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.But little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.
If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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Okay, but not becasue ive been hurt before, except if its by the whole male species by not noticing me...never had a boyfriend or serious realtionship so no one to hurt me.
Seventeen...
In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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I guess that is pretty accurate...my friends would know better than me...guess they could tell me how accurate...
Eighteen...(and it keeps going an dgoing and going...)
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Some of it seems ccurate except the leader part and the relaible part..not likely...
Nineteen...
You're a good person. You know how to be nice
without being OVERLY nice...You always try to
think of others and their needs, but you know
that it's impossible to please everyone and you
are willing to accept people as they are.
That's great!
Are you a Nice Person?? (Anime pics)
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Yep, and also quite willing to tell you exaclty what they are!
Twenty...
~*~Result nr 1~*~
Your power is: Clairvoyance
Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.
Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.
What Power is Compatible With You?
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Would really love this power...it would make decisions right now a lot easier..as for the description of self i think it is preetty accurate...who knows...
twenty-one...
You are a half angel. You can't seem to find your
wings to fly off into happiness. You often
seem depressed but really your trying find
something that you sometimes don't even know.
You can't help but feel lost and so sometimes
loose faith in what comes ahead but even if you
do find what your looking for you keep the
happiness inside but none the less you are a
kind person.
What Angel Resides In Your Soul?
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Too accuarate...hurts...
Twenty-two...
Your critter companion is the Wise White Wolf. You
are a person who likes to keep to themselves
and your social circle consists of a few,
select friends who share your interests. You
may seem cold to other people, but thats just
because youre a little shy. You dont like big
crowds and raucous parties, you'd much rather
sit somewhere quiet and read a book or
meditate.
What Kind of Critter Would be your Best Companion? (Anime pics!)
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yep...i agree...i like wolves...pretty creatures...so savage at points too
Twenty-three...(will it never end!)
Your hidden talent lies in Music. You are calm,
intelligent, and shy. You play music to soothe
your soul, and hardly anyone else who hears it
can resist its near-magical quality. You dont
try to impose on other peoples thoughts and
opinions though, and they appreciate and admire
you for that. You may not show your emotions
very much, but tranquil waters run deep, and
you are very, very deep.
Where Does Your Hidden Talent Lie? (Girls - anime pics)
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Amusing, can'r play worth a bean but do love to sing, don't know that it does anything for others...well except ive moved most fo my church to tears more than once singing solos...is that what they are saying? Don't know.
Twenty-four...
You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your
exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean.
You never overreact or panic in a bad situation
and you always know what to do. Everyone goes
to you for advice because you never lose your
head so your very reliable. You tend to take
everything in stride, like in school your moto
is just sit back and relax not to say you dont
pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for
counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite,
your not good with making new friends, but your
extremely close to the ones you have. Remember
its ok to put your emotions out there even
though there is a chance they might get hurt.
Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need
to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also
try to push yourself more even though you might
be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be
better. Check out my new short story.
Whats Your Personality(with PICS)
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some good some bad...but overall a good estimate of what i amd..except that first statement...melow? care-free? not in this lifetime...
Twenty-five...
You are the loner girl. You have reasons for being
a loner. You know people talk about you and it
may seem like people don't like you but
sometimes you can tell they don't want to but
are pressured into it but it still hurts you.
You see what's really happening under the
surface of school/ work.
What Kind Of Girl Are You?
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Interesting...i do always think people are talking about me behind my back and do not believe most people like me at all...after all do not hav emeny friends and a lot of poeple go out of their way to avoid getting to know me and guys don't want to dat eme...guess those could be some major clues a sto how bad my personality is, right?
Twenty-six...(i think i'm getting somewhere now)
You have a strong and courageou soul. You show
no fear when it comes to protecting the ones
you love. You know when choosing between right
and wrong. You also are quite the rebel.
Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye
Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde
streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled
back into a pony tail.
Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm
and if your low just hold on..cause I will be
your safety.....don't leave home.....
What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.
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well that was entertaining...always liked red hair.
Twenty-seven...
.:Neptune:.
. : : Which Astrological Planet are You? : : . [10 Gorgeous Pics!]
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????
Twenty-eight...
Your word is: Confused. You have reached a stage in
life where you have lost yourself completely.
Identity-crisis is only the first name, and
this is really depressing you. All you want is
to be yourself, but how can you, when you know
nothing? Others can not help in this situation,
only you can find yourself again and become
whole once more.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Too freakin' true...wish i could get out of it but seeems to be a long-term thing...already been a good three or four years now.
Twenty-nine...
The Sage Dragon is green or light green and the
largest dragon ever!
They live in large grassy places, and they do not
fight with
brutetallty but with wits and magic. The Sage
Dragon is calm and peaceful, and does not
steal, and if it found anything that didn't
belong to him/her, they would try to return it
to its owner.
The Sage dragons are wise(the smartest of all
dragons) and they stick
to where they like best and don't get involved with
war. The Sage Dragon thinks war it pointless,
although, they would be a very good fighter,
they are huge, and can't manuever like other
smaller dragons can, the Sage Dragon uses its
wits and magic...to of course....outwit
someone. They also love to use their size and
strength to weakon someone once they have them
in their grasps.
What Dragon Are You? Great Results!
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Alright contradiction in there but i still found the quiz and answer amusing. I guess i agree in many ways. I do agree most wars are pointless but that doesn't mean im not going to fight to protect what i love or defned those i love.
So who knows.
Hey look i'm done. I really do not do this as often as i should but i never know quite what to say so i avoid it. Anyways thats it fro now. Hope you enjoy the quizes...please give me your opinions on whether or not these semm to apply to me. I would love to get at leats one comment...never have...not that big a deal though...only person i know for sure who reads this is casey and she just tells me in person soo..
Well, Sleep well and dream sweet...
Well i just found this one and decided i wanted to post it. So another post for the day...
I got this one from a friend's sight i really liked....
Which Suikoden True Rune Are You Compatible With?
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Cool huh...
You are most compatible with the Blue Moon Rune. You probably have a lot of conflict within you, and have a multi-faceted personality. You may also be unsure of yourself, or who you really are. You have a very real power within you to either do great good or great harm. Unfortunately, you may not be aware of how to control that power, or may be afraid of using it, lest you unintentionally fall to corruption. You would probably benefit from being introspective and doing some soul-searching. Once you understand what you can do, you can channel your abilities to suit your will, and if you so choose, can help others a lot. The Blue Moon Rune's current owner is Sierra Milkain. She was found by the rune at age 16 ages ago and turned into the first vampire by it. To protect people from her uncontrollable bloodlust, she lived alone in a deserted cabin in the woods for centuries. Eventually, she learned to control the rune to dissipate the lust for blood, and as people found her, she founded Blue Moon Village, and extended the Rune's powers of compassion to the villagers, creating a peaceful community of vampires. One day, when the greedy Neclord stole the rune, all the villagers except Sierra were forced to either die or live as predators. Sierra then spent the next few hundred years getting back the rune, and killing vampires who preyed upon humans to live.
Sleep Well and Dream Sweet
Interesting...
I just found these old quiz answers saved as a draft in my blog. I can't tell what they rae until i publish. There probably good though since i did transport them to the site. I just then proceeded to forget like usual and never actuallly completed the blog to go with them. Well here they are...
Your a Water Angel. Some may call you cold hearted
though you are quite the opposite. You get
angry easily but most of the time you are calm.
Calm and collected, you love the water.
Singing is your talent and your pretty damn
good at it. You are serene and caring when you
have to be.
What Kind of Elemental Angel are You? {with anime pictures}
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you have an angel spirit.You like to sing and dance
and help others.Ill bet you're just an innocent
little angel,right? ^ ^ (please vote)
********WHAT TYPE OF SPIRIT ARE YOU********
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Anyways right now i'm very depressede and just starting a downhill slide into even worse deporession due to number of reasons, too numerous for me to really explian. Essentailly i'm mentioning it to tell my friends, warn them actaually that for the next few weeks i will probably be very pessismistic and very sarcastic and at some points mean, petty and thoughtless. Also a heads up that this may entail some slight time frames in which i will me maniac instead of depressed, so be on the watch for those as well.
I just found out that i have not only bronchitus which i'm trying to recover from but also a very serious sinus infection involving both the internal and external sinuses. And because of this little discovering i also now know that amoxicallin is no longer effective in my body as an anti-bacterial, essentially it doesn't work for me anymore.
So right now my life just seems to be getting worse. I start a new anti-bacterial tommorrow and hopefully this one will work. Its a new one so they don't beleive their is any chance my body or the bacteria will have an immunity to it.
I however did complete a major assignment due tommorrow so that is one less worry. Well i think thats it for now. Going to relax for a while before dinner.
Sleep Well and Dream Sweet
Well hello agian....
My best friend scooter has been getting on my case tonight about not blogging. I don't do it much because of several reasons. The most important is time the second is that i just don't know what to say half the time and as i consider my life the pinnacle of boringness i don't figure many people wish to hear about it. The third is that i think the only people who ever read it are my friends and well they already know all about my life anyways and they really don't need to hear me rant more about the way my life sucks (a side affect of being depressed most of your life is that you know your depressed and that you actually are pretty well off but that you can't seem to stop complaining or being a bitch about it anyways). Lastly i belive the fact that my life is boring as hell is confirmed by the fact that no one ever seems to have anything to say or complain about to me from my blog, thus i figure it can't be that important to them.
So now my blog is just becoming the place i go when i'm bored and just want to write down details i want to remember for later on. Anyways moving on....
First we'll start with a couple quizes to nail down my personality more or just to afford me amusement because i know there is no way that it is true...
Ohh.....fun....yummy...
You got Setsuna from Angel Santuary! He's
obsessive, and very passionate. But he has an
angel inside him that wants to get revenge on
god (big problem) and he's chased by angels and
demons all the time. He's so passionate that
he'd follow you into hell or...anything. But
he's a forestfire when you turn him on so don't
light the match unless your ready for some
fireworks! But seriously, the whole gods enemy
thing could use soem fixing. 0_o; But still...
He's the quiet guy dressed in black you see in
the corner, the guy you want to talk to but
never do. Overall type: The outsider that you
can heal, also known as the badboy. I'd watch
myself if I were you.
A Anime date quiz/ what kind of guy do you like quiz
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i liked tthat one...
up next...
The Angel of Destiny! A religious Vasal of god.
What kind of Angel are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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kind of cool i get to decide the destiny of others...just what i always wanted...hahaha...
Your an Outcast Angel! These angels were once upon
a time, very loved, and of the highest ranks of
all the angels. But, when something terrible
happened in their lives, much like the
dark-angels, the outcats leave the heavens and
move down to earth. Out cats angel are not
nessearily evil. In fact, they are quite kind,
but filled with greif and guilt unimaginable.
Outcast angels are usually formed when they
have failed something, and ridden with guilt,
they are banned out of heaven, sent down to
earth, and live alone. They are always quite
and sad, and rarely contact with humans. If a
huam befriends an outcast angel, they have a
friend for life.
What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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well.. even heaven wouldn't keep me for long it seems. Told you my life and personality sucked.
You are a Mystery Muffin! No one knows what you
are. YOU don't even know what you are.
What kind of muffin are you?
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interesting..a mystery even to myself sounds very feasible.
Alright now the serious stuff. This semester i am takeing five real courses, finishing up one incomplte and taking to excercise courses (yoga and step interval). I have three history one on biographies and how to write them, my senior capstone. One on chivalry and the crusades and their modern implications in society, a junior writing requirement that i actaully signed up after already completing one. I'm a glutton for punishment. The last is on American military History. It's pretty interesting i was taking it the semester i had to drop out of school. There are also two math courses one is elementary number theory anf the other in teaching methods for math. So this semester looks to be very busy.
Other news...I'm thinking of going overseas to complete my teaching credentials for my students teaching semester. Have to look into it and see what is the best option for me as a person. I'm going on a cruise this summer with my dad and scooter. My brother is currently looking for a new job that pas better than starbucks and has better advancement. He's looking into a translator position with the government. I have jopined the army and are officially getting paid. Still don't know what i am going to do once i get through basic but i have time to decide. My friend in the air force proposed to someone he has been in love with for five years. She accepted they have set a ceremony date in June of 2007 but if necessary (meaning if he gets shipped overseas) they will be married in a civil ceremony before he leaves. Lastly i beleive is that we as a group above fifteen people at tghe moment are heading to the renaissance festival this year. It will be very interesting to try and get us alll to agree on what we want to do and see so i figure within an hour of arriving we will be splitting into smaller groups.
Medical update is that i have bronchitus at the moment and can't seem to shake it. Going back to the doctor's on thursady to try something else.
My pesoanl life has improved with the addition of three to four new friends and a guy who i have been out on one date with and who wants to go out more (also wants to take me to mexico with him and sky diving he seems to feel it is his duty to get me to live more and do all the stuff i've always wanted to do). He was in a class with me last semester and another this semester. We were both interested but i was the one who fianlly asked him, decided i wanted to have some funa and if i wanted it i wopuld have to start taking the initiative, so i asked. We had a our first date and actually spent the whole evening from the ned of class that day on together. It was fun and i reallly enjoyed talking with him. He made me laugh and enjoy myself, a rarity in my life a lot.
Welll thats it for today i think, going to go to bed now so can get up and do homework tomorrow.
Sleep well and Dream Sweet
Hi, look a second post in only two days. How scary!!! Well today i have completed none of my report, well actually i did read another chapter in one of my research books. I have an outline for work set up and i also have my intro written up so i'm further then i was yesterday. Tommorrow I hope to finish at least the next 4 hopefully five segments of my paper and the last on sunday followed by my homewrok for the coming week. So busy weekend ahead. Lots of fun. Figured out that even if i get 40 out of 100 on this paper with an 80 and a 90 on the rewrite and on the final respectively, i will be able to get a C in the course and thats all i freaking need to count it toward my major. So thats good, however it means i need to get this paper done this weekend. Like i said fun.
As for the rest of my classes:
Linear Algebra - A (so far, amazement sets in)
PES 100 *2 - passing i beleive but barely one too many abscences in one of them, going to have to make it up
ECI 450 - A
HIS 300W - C
MAT 402 - A
ENG 270 - A
ECI 308 - Incomplete, long drawn out story ahving to do with the incompetence of the education department in dealing with these courses
Got signed up for classes next semester:
HIS 300W - Chivalry an dthe Crusades
HIS 498C - History as Biography
HIS 401 - American Military History
MAT 401 - Teaching Mathematics
MAT 318 - Elementary Number Theory
2 PES courses
plus about 85 hours of practicum, visiting classrooms
Fun semester coming up.
Oh well, guess i can enjoy life whhen i'm dead.
Anyways, next weekend i'm going home. Just need to get out of Flag for a while. Hope i get to relax a little. Need more sleep. Starting to feel like a walking zombie, and you know what starting to walk like on too. Well thats enough chatter for now, time to investigate some quizzes...
The Doves - There Goes the Fear
Lyrics:
Out of here
We're out of here
Out of heartache
Along with fear
There goes the fear again
There goes the fear
And cars speed fast
Out of here
And life goes past
Again so near
There goes the fear again
There goes the fear
Close your brown eyes
And lay down next to me
Close your eyes, lay down
'Cos there goes the fear
Let it go
You turn around and life's passed you by
You look to ones you love to ask them why
You look to those you love to justify
You turned around and life's passed you by
Passed you by again
And late last night
Makes up her mind
Another fight
left behind
There goes the fear again
Let it go
There goes the fear
Close your brown eyes
And lay down next to me
Close your eyes, lay down
'Cos there goes the fear
Let it go
You turn around and life's passed you by
You look to ones you love to ask them why
you look to those you love to justify, why
you turned around and life's passed you by
Think of me when you're coming down
But don't look back when leaving town
Oh think of me when he's calling out
But don't look back when leaving town
Think of me when you close your eyes
But don't look back when you break all ties
Think of me when you're coming down
But don't look back when leaving town today
There goes the fear again
Let it go
There goes the fear
Let it go
Think of me when you close your eyes
But don't look back when you break all ties
Think of me when you're coming down
But don't look back when leaving town today
What's Your Theme Song?
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Too cool... I loved this quiz, i like the song too. Even if this is the first time i've heard/seen it.
You are a blue dragon! You are reliable and
steady. You are known for being able to work
for long periods of time without tiring. You
are intelligent and very perceptive, and a good
judge of talent. You are good at finding
humans who would make good dragonriders. You
tend to set reasonable goals, and almost always
succeed at what you set out to do.
What color of Pernese dragon are you?
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Since i love this series thought i'd take the quiz now goingt o go see what other colors i could get...
Oh well tried a couple of change sthat still suit me and got the above or a green, guess i wasn't meant to be a queen, there goes those dreams. poof! little puff of smoke, smell of burnt hair, cough cough
Well thats it for tonight, talk to you all later.
Sleep well and dream sweet.
Well sorry was going through my frineds site and ran across this thing a gaina and had a couple more possiblities ot run through it...
So here goes...
and the other...
Fun huh? And one last one for my sanity...or maybe for my insanity...
This is way too much fun...
I really liked that one...
I so want to know how they do this...
It just gets more fun...oh, by the way, that one is my author name if i ever publish anything...
Don't like this last one so much, but hey i put the rest up
Well their we go my many happy endings...Have fun experimenting...
Sleep well and Dream sweet.
Yeah so the theory about posting more this year was definately not valid. Here it is novemebr and my last post was in august i think. Oh well, not that bi a deal after all nobody reads it anyways. Anywasy this semester was going pretty well until about three maybe four weeks agao when a came down with this nasty cold that still won't disipitate. Still congested and suffereing from headaches. Due to this i fell behind in like three of my courses and in the process of catching up was unable to complete a research paper that was due. Since then my inablity to concentrate and incresing tiredness have made it impossible for me to finish it an devery dya I don't i lose that many more points on it. Right now i don't even expect to pass it just want to finish it to prove i can. The problem stems from the inability to concentrate for more that two hours which has over taken me since that cold. I feel something is wrong with me either physically or mentally and no one seems to notice or care for that matter. It's not really that i expect them to drop everything to help me sort out what is going on but i would kind of wish them to actually care more and listen to what I am saying about what is wrong with me. I mean I love my friends to death but they always toss evrything we say out like a joke or suddenly its just a joke or a means of discussing their own problems. Sometimes I just wish they would listen to everything I'm explaining an dthen tedll me i'm just being a hypocondriac (which i know i am) or tell me it ois something i should have checked out. I don't need to know what their patterns of sleep are or that they just think its normal that i should be sleeping more after missing so much sleep. Pretty much i just need them to think about the exact things i'm teling them not bring in any outside beleif they have on how i live my life and just tell me with what symptoms i'm exibiting if i should talk to a doctor or wait. I don;'t know i guess its more along the lines of a complaint for me in that my friends can't seem to take anything seriously even when we are having a serious talk they still toss off jokes and things when i'm just trying to actually discuss something. I love my friends very much but at times i can't even talk to them about things because its like they can't be serious even when you ask them too.
Well they are now all going to read that and be pissed at me for a while, but you know what i fell better for having typed it out because now maybe they'll understand why i get upset with every once in a while.
Anyways so i am behind in my calss and still ill i think that is where is was at when i started rambling. I am going to finish the paper between now and sunday and hope my teacher is still willin got read it when i'm done. I'm suppossed to also do all my homework due next week this weekend so as to insure that i can sleep next week. Doctor's orders. She wants me to finish my homework on weekends from now on so that during the week i don't stay up late some night trying to finish homework becasue i haven't been able to concentrate on it all day because i'm already tired. I'm also suppossed to be improving my diet which i am to some degree succeeding at and intaking more water which i was succeeding at unitl this week when i jsut stopped drinking. Gone start that agian this weekend. Anyways strying to treat my insomnia and tiredness, neither of which is succeed as shown from the increased amount of tiredness this semester instaed of less.
Anyways that was another downer paragraph. How about something a little more light hearted fro the next segment. Me and my friends went out this weekend for halloween on saturday night. It was cool we went out in costume and went to a couple bars. Their was some dancing adn on my part a realization that i will never succeed at getting drubnk because i really ahte the tatse of most alcohols and i don't consume enough liquid in a day to allow me to drink enough to get drunk without first making myself sick to my stomach. Well so we went to San Felipe's and i followed my friends up onto the bar, a memeory to last a life time. I can now claim that i have actually danced on a bar and you know what i wasn't drunk when i did it either.
Well now we will see what kind of tests i can find out there to share with you guys...
Your a gorgous girl. Probaly every boy would fall
for you:) But sometimes your a little spoiled
like me(lol) Also you probaly get lots of mail
if you know what I mean;)
What Type Of Girl Are You???(Amazing Pics)
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Cute quiz, kind of fun...
Outcome is in question. After all if guys were falling in love with right and left don't you think one of them would have felt secure enough toa ctaully want to date me by now?
D:
Your Beauty lies in
Intelligence. Logical, wise and a book-worm. You
have a mature beauty and
look that shows how smart you are. You rely solely
on your logic to solve all
your or anyone else's problems, which is a bit of a
two-sided coin. The fact
makes you seem rather emotionless and cold to some
people. Not everything can be
solved with logic. Despite it, many come to you for
advice and love how
smart you are, wondering if there is anything you
don't know. You probably don't
wear much make-up as it distracts you from your
studies, but you may wear a pair
of glasses just because you like how you look in
them, whether you need them or
not. For the most part, your looks mean little to
you, which makes all the more
attractive, especially when you're concentrated on
something. Good for you. Now
go get your next A+.
Some Things That
Represent
You:
Element: Water,
Light Animal: Owl Color: Black,
White, Blues Song:
Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata Expression:
Concentrated Stare
Gemstone: Topaz
Mythological
Creature: Centaur Sign: Libra
Planet: Uranus
Hair Color: Dusty Blonde Eye Color:
Gray-Blue
Quote:
"Knowledge is
power."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Amazing Pictures And Ten Detailed Results::.. All Fixed!
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Let's just say amazing quiz me likey espacilly the little list thing at the end about things that represent me. Many of them our my favorites in those categories. So it was areally cool quiz.
One more...
You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)
What season are you? (pics)
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Winter huh? It always was my favorite season. The description is pretty accurate to.
Anyways thats enough for today. I've pissed off enough people for one day and now intend on going to sleep so i can deal with the reprecussions tomorrow.
Night all. Sleep tight and dream sweet.
